I think I have dealt with a lot of my irrational thoughts and feelings quite well since starting the plan; the coaching has been so valuable in combatting those crooked thoughts. The thing I cannot seem to deal with rationally and I expect this is similar to a lot of women, is the dreaded PMT.
It can turn a perfectly sane woman into a complete lunatic, and I for one find it the hardest thing to deal with. Because of this, I’ve made some bad choices this week. I’ve sat feeling miserable and sorry for myself and eaten goodness knows how many chocolate biscuits, dunked into my coffee. I went out for a Thai meal last night and polished off a plateful of rice, noodles and various coconutty dishes, followed by a fudgy, ice cream dessert.
Through the complete lunacy of my choices, I’ve managed to have small moments of clarity, and I’ve taken the opportunity to tell myself that this does not mean I’ve failed, these were the choices I made, and there is nothing I can do about it now, other than to carry on with the plan as normal. I’ve learnt over the past few months that by having something ‘bad’ to eat isn’t cheating or messing things up, it's a choice that I made at the time. Of course I don’t want to put on weight after doing so well losing it, but when I feel like a crazy person for a couple of days and I’m craving a curry, I’m going to have one. Depriving myself will only make it worse, and probably move me more towards throwing my arms in the air and giving up because it’s too hard.
Weight loss is a journey, and like any journey there are ups and downs, a few bumps in the road, and even a few de-tours along the way, but as long as I focus on the destination (my goals) at the end of that journey, then I will always find my way back on track.